Ordered a few shirts, got them on sale. Boom. Happy Valentines’ Day to me.
Would like to see if I can get 2 others in different colors in my new size (like an off-blue, and a dark purple). I wear deeply-colored dress shirts (a now-former student called them ‘saturated,’ and she is right—that is the best adjective) because I’m so fair (blonde-hair, blue-eyes).
I’ve put this off for far too long, and it’s about time I did something for myself.
I still have a ways to go in terms of updating wardrobe (new polos, jeans, some new t-shirts, dress pants), but this is a step in the right direction—because this is daily wear for work.
Honestly, fresh haircut plus new better-fitting dress shirts, I’ll feel (and probably look like) a totally new and different man.
If I can just add some muscle (or at least tone / firm up what I have), I’ll feel and look pretty amazing.
I am proud of the weight-loss—done since Lent 2016 (my Lenten resolution that year), and really in-depth since that fall (30 lbs. since Sept. 2016). At around 176-178 I’m at my ‘target’ weight—I don’t want to go too much further down, but I also don’t want to erase any positive gains I’ve made either. I’d like to stay about this weight, so now I can update clothes as needed.
I’ve mentioned this on other threads, but I’ve always kinda struggled with body image. Not that I’m necessarily bad-looking, or that I was seriously overweight, but I’ve at times had difficulties seeing how I could be physically attractive to someone else, if that makes sense. I just didn’t really see it in myself, but I could see it in others, and I could see it in W (and I would often tell her and hug / hold / touch in a way that I wanted her to know that).
For a school project for OS a few weeks ago, W printed out some pics of him and family members from CVS, and one pic is me carrying him, with W’s father in the pic at a pro baseball game in SoCal from this past summer. OS and I have big smiles on our faces, and when I saw the pic, I thought—that’s me, that’s what I look like? I look great. Tall, relatively thin, good definition in forearms and calves (from where / how I was carrying OS), my head cocked at an angle, a big smile on my face and I’m wearing sunglasses.
Right now? I love how I look. Just need some more muscle, but as is, I’m quite happy with how I look. It’s not something I’ve said very often, or thought I would find myself saying.
