Yes this is tough, and her adversarial behavior makes it ten times tougher! She says she wants to be amicable, and I agree with that.
However, she only wants to be amicable if it is in her best interest and works with her plans and schedule.
It is so very sudden. She did tell me in July or August that she is irrationally angry because I had been deployed for 8 months at that point, and I think she is using her anger to continue this assault on me to hurt and destroy me. Last time I was in the home it was loaded with motivational posters and sayings everywhere; she said those plus pictures of bad times we shared being up,kept her motivated to leave.
She has been irrationally angry before, and threatened divorce before, most recent time was 2011 when she told me to get a vasectomy or she was divorcing me because she was tired of having to take birth control pills and it shouldn't be her responsibility to minimize our chances of having another child. I didn't stand my ground and got the procedure done, and I regret it to this day, especially now. I wasn't sure about getting it done at the time, because I wasn't sure I only wanted 2 kids, and needed time to think. She demanded I get it done or she was leaving with the kids and moving to another state before I returned from deployment.
Me40; W38; S12; D9 BD11/19/2018 D filed 12/20/18 D Final 7/2020 Being the best example I know how for my kids to see.