My WAS - looking help and thanks in advance PART 6

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Harvey, it's been a while since I've addressed this and I don't expect everyone to go back and read my day 1 posts. I was a world class jerk to her. I'd yell at her for leaving a purse out. I left her at the Dr's office after lasik b/c it was taking to long and I didn't clear my schedule for the day. That event makes me want to puke still. I really do, and did, love this woman and I really reduced her to nothing at times. She had to become a small, pliable person in order to be under the same roof as me.

She didn't say things the right way, she didn't cook things the right way, nothing was ever good enough. Horrible way to live. I know because that's how it was for me growing up. She told me she couldn't take it, she asked me to go to counseling, she did stay tough for some time but she didn't know how to handle someone from a screwed up home like me. And when she couldn't take it anymore she started searching for OM.

LB, I didn't do it to punish her. I didn't know what the hell to actually do. But she put that ultimatum out there and I chose poorly in her opinion. She agreed to get rid of the snapchat app and wear her ring. She didn't hold up her end of it.