Hit by the dreaded ILYBNILWY

[mikeyb]

Glad you are thinking about things..

I was massively depressed before BD for about three years.

I had dropped over 60lbs and was down to 168 and in the best shape since I stopped playing college ball. I got my dream job, and we bought our first home. I think I just accomplished so much in the two years before that that I kind of felt like I deserved a break...

Then I started really losing a lot of hair and that mad me really depressed... then the weight started to creep back...and the negging at home...and the demands at work plus two little one under 5 and I just kind of was walking through this fog until the BD snapped me out of it.

What I'll say about goals like hygiene and just general self care is that you are doing it right. you have to make it part of a routine. Looking good makes us feel good, so do it every day and you'll feel better every day

About your teeth:

If the quote is something set in stone, do they have payment options you could take advantage of? short-term loan? is it something you could budget for and get it done in a few months?

I just spent $3K on my 6yo's mouth. IT drives me nuts to pay that much on work for teeth that are just going to fall out anyways, but it had to be done.

Keep going to the gym, keep reading, and keep yourself looking good, man! Hope this weekend give you time to process exactly what you want from your life and what you deserve in all your relationships!

Unable to get approved for a loan at the moment due to the state of my credit from my financials. I am working on fixing that, but it takes time. Budget is extremely tight at the moment but could be something that can be added in soon.

As for the time to myself, I went to a concert with my mom yesterday and it was in a town I hadn't been to in about 2 1/2 years. It also was the town where I met my wife so it was kinda hard driving through town and had a lot of memories flash back to me. Once I got to the concert though I enjoyed myself and didn't let it weigh me down.

Then I get home around 11:30 and the wife called me to tell me she was heading home, we stayed on the phone for about 2 hours. I honestly couldn't tell you the last time we had talked for that long was. It probably would have continued but I cut it off and went to bed as I had to get up early today.

And now I'm about to head out to Busch gardens and enjoy my day with some friends.