Thank you Adam. The feelings and thoughts you have are so much like mine. I, too, know I will be okay and maybe even better off in the end. But I have to get through the grief first and that is just going to take time.There are no short cuts unfortunately and if I tried to make one, I know I would only regret it in the end. At the end of the day, I have to be able to look in the mirror and be okay with the person looking back at me. Sorry about your headaches. I’ve been plagued with them for most of my life. I’ve had way too many trips to the emergency room than I care to remember. As I’ve gotten older, however, my headaches have decreased a somewhat and increased in longevity. I get them about once every four to six weeks now and they last about three days. No fun at all.
My H has been good with our kids. When he was living his double life, he was not a great dad. He was good when he was around but you can’t really be too effective when your kids only see you an hour a day. My D11 even commented the other day that she sees her dad way more now that he doesn’t live with us. How backwards is that.
I hope you have a good weekend too. I do have some plans. I get every other Monday off so this is my three-day weekend. I’ve got plans for each day. Tomorrow is a women’s wellness fair at the local convention centre and my sister is staying overnight. We’re up early on Sunday and heading to the mainland for an overnight trip...something we do every year around our birthday. I always look forward to it.
We will both make it through. Love and (((HUGS))) to you and your little boy.
