I went and got my nails done after work and made plans with my nail tech for a girls night next weekend. She wants to give me a makeover...lol. She is a few years younger than me, single and wanting to cultivate more female friendships like me. She is quite different from me...a bit on the flakey, quirky side...but she has a big heart and a genuine spirit. I always feel better after we have spent some time together.
The burning feeling in my chest has subsided. I think it is a mixture of grief, disappointment, disbelief (still) and fear. None of those feelings are pleasant on their own but combined they can be overwhelming at times. I think it will be awhile yet for the burning to go away completely. That will be a big sign for me that I have fully achieved detachment and acceptance.
GAL activities... I am getting there. Kids are still with me 75% of the time and I work full-time so my free time is a bit limited. The gym I had a membership to went bankrupt a few months ago and the other ones nearby aren’t really my cup of tea. There is a new one opening soon nearby so hoping it will be offering some good membership deals. I would prefer a women’s-only gym but the only one we had is the one that went bankrupt. I have my pool league once a week and was thinking about joining one of the local Rotary clubs. Still have yet to start guitar lessons but trying to practice a little each day so I can build up some callouses on my fingers and be able to play for the duration of a lesson. My main goal is to build up a bigger network of friends so I won’t feel my sister’s absence too much when she goes away in December for a couple months.
Phoenix... I like the goals you have been setting for yourself. You have come a long way.
