Just a reminder that real love endures hard times. And my relationship with ex wasn’t real. It was a punch in the gut.
I feel that gut punch when I see happy longterm couples as well. It has been a looonnnnng time since I saw my H beaming with pride over me. He saw it from me whenever he bothered to include me in his life but obviously he didn't notice...or care to notice. It IS nice to know that it is possible to have that kind of relationship though. For now, I am okay with seeing that look from my kids.
I have had similar dreams as you Pax... some of them day dreams. But I think you are a lot like me in that regard... it is more important to rise above than it is to give into the desire to try to hurt our H's as much as they hurt us. I think it is normal to feel that way when someone you love and trust betrays you in that way. Those feelings will fade however and in the end, I think both you and I will be proud of ourselves that we were true to our values and beliefs. In the meantime, however, it is really, really hard. (((HUGS)))
