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Mega-Mojo got f**ked
Two times in one day


H was due back from the road yesterday afternoon.He hadn't called in two days so I knew he was upset about my show of strength in bringing up the issue. Finally he called on his way home yesterday evening after letting me worry about why he was so late. He said he had been upset and he apologized for being so childish about it and not calling. He said he felt half angry with me for being controlling and having bad timing for laying this on him now while he's stressed out about his new job, but then he got all emotional and said he was ashamed of himself because he knows he hasn't been being a very good husband to me.

I shared with him the things that I've learned. That Iunderstand that he has a high arousal threshold and I need to be more agressively seductive to overcome that and that he needs to understand that the reason I was being too timid was because I was afraid of being hurt by his rejection because I needed him to validate me as a sexual being. I told him that I'm working at doing a better job of self-validating and he needs todoa better job of taking responsibility when he rejects me.

He said that he could sense my neediness and that had been a turnoff.It bugged him when I would always say "I love you" after sex, because for him sex and love don't necessarily go together. I agreed and said "because what we do in bed isn't exactly what you would call making love" and he replied (quite brilliantly I thought for someone who hasn't read chap.10 PM)"Yeah, I know what a F**K is". I laughed and told him some of what was said in chap. 10. He was quite pleased to be able to regard himself as being in the top 20th percentile in quality of F**K if not quantity.(LOL)

After a pleasant evening with the kiddies, we actually managed to stay up later than them and H initiated some action.
I went to sleep shortly after that while H watched TV in family room. I woke up later and realized that H was still out in the family room. I tried to differentiate but I kept having this obsessive thought that maybe he was watching porn on cable so I went out to the family room.

he was just watching a movie. I calmed myself down and decided to share my fear with him since I wan't upset and I just wanted to illustrate for him some of the negative thoughts I'd been having. Since I was matter of fact about the matter and took responsibility for being a little too fragile around the issue. He was receptive and even offered to try to give up porn completely. I asked himtoexplain tome what exactly it was that he liked about the porn.He said he didn't really like most of it, but sometimes he would encounter a visual image that would just instantly get him very aroused with it's novelty. I said Ididn't really think I would have a problem with the porn if he could work on being able to bring some of that arousal home to me. Also it wouldn't bug me if I was getting my share of action (2x week min.). and I said I would work on trying to come up with some visual novelties myself.

And then I got laid again!

So guys and gals, anybody got some creative ideas for visual novelties to share with Mojo?


"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" - Mary Oliver