I haven't heard from ex since yesterday morning. He always calls in the evening and we typically make plans for the night and talk about our day. I'm assuming he is mad at me for calling him out on his secret keeping. I'm not going to play his game or chase him and have my lines ready for when I do talk to him. I told my IC yesterday that if I were in the same situation I am in now, in 6 months or 3 years, I would be so angry at myself. I just want to be happy. She also mentioned men exist that don't call women names. Who knew!
This weekend, we went out of town with friends and it was fun. For some reason I kept getting hit on by random guys. Ex made sure to come over and stake his claim. When we got back to the hotel he mentioned that he should have knocked one of the guys out. Ha ha. That was one thing during our sitch that stayed consistent, he constantly asked me if I was seeing or dating anyone and that he hoped I wasn't.
It feels like everything good that has happened since we decided to reconcile was almost wasted by this. My IC seems to think the entire tractor situation was a manipulation and I took the bait.
