Dejavu, it seems forgiveness can mean different things. I personally don't feel inclined to forgive my husband because he's not sorry for what he's done and he hasn't apologized. It's admirable though how you're so early in your situation and you're trying so hard to accept and forgive. There's a fine line to walk between forgiving to help yourself move on and forgiving to the point where the forgive-ee takes it as a green light to exploit you further. It's all so complicated.