As promised, my status for not only this day, but for the last 11 days.
It's been 85-90% positive and happiness. And that figure is unarguably the highest I have ever rated my happiness.
I am drawing a good amount of positive, attractive attention from women. I have been flirting and having conversations with women about anything. And they are responding very positively. I feel attractive. I AM attractive. It starts with my body language and the way I carry myself. My confidence in my body carries the good attitude (weight lifting has been amazing for me) and it goes from there. I talk to as many people I can, man or woman. Anyone who would enjoy talking about their day, what they like to eat, the weather, and so on. The response has been all positive.
Last Friday I decided to take an opportunity of Grandma watching D4 and I got dressed in my finest Men's Warehouse wardrobe (Dark Levi's jeans, blue dress shirt, tan vest, brown overcoat, brown dress shoes) and go to a Meetup social event in Portland.
From there my confidence skyrocketed. I talked to more women. One was a very attractive health care worker who came to me ( :o) and we hit it off. Lots of talking, lots of eye contact, she would not leave my side. I left to go to the bathroom and she asked me if I was leaving. I was not leaving. We sat next to each other and continued to talk to the other folks there for a good 3 hours. At the end of the night, I walked her to her car and asked for her number to make plans to go on a date the next Tuesday (yesterday. More on that in a moment). The next day, I hit another sale at Men's warehouse and picked up two shirts, snazzy black dress shoes, and a black suede belt. My wardrobe shift continues.
I confirmed plans with her Super Bowl sunday by leaving her a message on her phone. She texted me back the next day with enthusiasm and told me she is looking forward to it.
Yesterday was the day of the date and I was nervous but looking forward to it. And then she texted me that she had to cancel because she was sick. Bummer. She was disappointed that we could not go this weekend since she is out of town and works until Friday next week. So we made plans to meet next Friday.
I could have changed my plans and just go lift and stay at my friend's.
I did not.
I got dressed in my date clothes, and drove into the city for a night in one or Portland's vibrant arts districts (that was our date plan). I got there and the place was very slow. Everything except bars and restaurants were closed. Stores and art galleries were shuttered and there were not many people walking the street. To add, it was bitterly cold. I then realized that her being sick was a blessing in disguise. I don't think she would have enjoyed herself yesterday. I made the most of my time alone and had a nice dinner and ice cream at Salt and Straw (where I continued to chat to random friendly folks). Drove back late, lifted, and went to sleep.
I had a long day at work, but when it was all done, I felt great. I was not angry or bummed out like I was. I felt and still feeling very happy. I love this job.
The impending snowstorm this coming weekend has me considering plans with D4 and what we're going to do. Chances are it will just be me and D4 for the entire weekend since WW will be with OM2 and cozying up to him in the snow. I care less now. Her loss. I am amazing. My date (maybe) is proof that not only can I still draw them (thank you again everyone for the vote of confidence), but keep them engaged, whether it's a friendly chat, a date, or a bowling partner.
I'm saying this now: 2019 has been a great year so far. I truly feel reborn.
Originally Posted by sandi2
Maybe all this time you just needed your male confidence boosted.
Enjoy your elation.
No maybes about it, Sandi. It was a huge shot in the arm. I am loving where I am now.
