Living - take good care of yourself the next few days. Find whatever small (healthy) thing brings you comfort and go towards that. I binged watch my "happy place" tv shows and movies (Harry Potter/The Crown/Call The Midwives). Find something that will suck you in but not bring you to a negative space.
Force yourself to eat some light foods if you have no appetite. Force yourself to stay hydrated (tea?). Read something that brings you to a happy safe place especially if you can't sleep.
Only drink alcohol if you are confident in yourself that you won't over indulge. I occasionally have one to take the edge off, but now never have more than 1 if I'm feeling emotional.
It's okay to bring your energy level way down out of self protection for the short term. I know everyone says GAL and that's very true. But sometimes you need a few days of emotional crisis control.
I'm sure your head is spinning. Do not tell yourself that you need to make any decisions or force yourself to feel one thing or another. You can change your mind how you feel on any given moment and that is fair.
I'm sorry if it sounds like I'm trying to tell you what to do. My intent is to give you as soft a landing as possible in case your brain is on such over-load that you can't process. I'm wanting to simply guide you to a safe place so you don't have to worry about next steps.
You have a lot of people thinking about you.
Thank you Yail, you are awesome. No apologies necessary, I appreciate all your advice. I知 going to take it too. I知 going to spend some time and quiet the noise and allow my mind to get back in a better place. Today is bad but I知 confident things will get better in the coming days. I just need to sit still, pray, and really listen to God痴 voice.
Also no apologies nexsssary for the thread recommendation to Bubbs16. I hope it helps him and I知 heading over to read it myself.
THANK YOU to everyone that has chimed in on my thread yesterday and today. I appreciate you all more than you know. I don稚 know whew I would be without this forum. There is no one in my life that I can share the things with I share here without some judgement. You guys and gals are truly the best. I知 exhausted (only got 2 and half hours of sleep last night) but I can already feel my mind slowing down. Thank God!
Original BD: 10/26/2017 PA: 10/2017 - 11/2017 Second BD: 09/15/2018 Currently: IHS M: 42 H: 45 S: 22 lives on his own D: 18 away at college S: 15 still lives at home - the only child we share together
