Living - take good care of yourself the next few days. Find whatever small (healthy) thing brings you comfort and go towards that. I binged watch my "happy place" tv shows and movies (Harry Potter/The Crown/Call The Midwives). Find something that will suck you in but not bring you to a negative space.
Force yourself to eat some light foods if you have no appetite. Force yourself to stay hydrated (tea?). Read something that brings you to a happy safe place especially if you can't sleep.
Only drink alcohol if you are confident in yourself that you won't over indulge. I occasionally have one to take the edge off, but now never have more than 1 if I'm feeling emotional.
It's okay to bring your energy level way down out of self protection for the short term. I know everyone says GAL and that's very true. But sometimes you need a few days of emotional crisis control.
I'm sure your head is spinning. Do not tell yourself that you need to make any decisions or force yourself to feel one thing or another. You can change your mind how you feel on any given moment and that is fair.
I'm sorry if it sounds like I'm trying to tell you what to do. My intent is to give you as soft a landing as possible in case your brain is on such over-load that you can't process. I'm wanting to simply guide you to a safe place so you don't have to worry about next steps.
