(((Living))). Those talks really, really s#ck....Yes...you have to pick yourself up. Same game plan. Nothing has changed except that you had an R talk when he is clearly in the same frame of mind that he was at BD. You don’t know how this is going to end up but you do know that nothing is going to change overnight. ....Ultimately, of course, you would like to save your marriage but the only chance you have to do that is to let him go. Give him space and time. Get busy. Get out of the house... a lot. Stop worrying about and wondering what he is thinking or doing. Treat him like he is your roommate. Take care of yourself and let him take care of himself. Don’t ask questions that you may not want the answer to. When/if his feelings start to change, you will know it. Until then, live life for you and your S. Right now it is going to take a lot of effort and you aren’t going to feel like doing it. It will get easier, I promise. (((HUGS)))
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I am thinking it might be better for you to be alone this weekend and let H take care of S. I am sure you need some emotional release.
PS: Would you also add S age in your tagline.
I agree and I thought it over and I’m either leaving my S home or he will go stay with a friend. I need the time to myself.
I need emotional release and I need to get myself together. I need to get myself back to where I was before I hoped back on his roller coaster.
I’m joining a gym and when I have the time during the week. I’m going to be gone as much as I can. I can gas my S with me go the gym. He loves playing basketball at the gym. I love being at home but I can’t stand the thought of being trapped in here with my H.
I know I may not be ready for this but I’m going to look at an appartment tomorrow. They just built some beautiful ones in my time in my sons school district. Like I said, I’m not sure I’m ready to leave. Kind of [censored] that I would have to be the one to leave when he is the one that wants out. But I don’t know how much more I can take.
Like I said he alll be gone for a couple of weeks starting at the end of this month, so I can enjoy quiet time at home while he is gone. Until then, I need to avoid him like the plague.
My S is 15 by the way. I’ll add that.
Original BD: 10/26/2017 PA: 10/2017 - 11/2017 Second BD: 09/15/2018 Currently: IHS M: 42 H: 45 S: 22 lives on his own D: 18 away at college S: 15 still lives at home - the only child we share together
