I had a long conversation with my sister tonight about ex and I. In the months we've been working on things, I haven't really noticed a significant change from before. There are times or moments he seems to really listen or is very sweet but the day to day is just so much like a roller coaster ride. Last night he was in a negative mood and everything I said, he thought the exact opposite. This isn't the sunshine and rainbows I thought it was going to be. When he came to me wanting to fix everything and I FINALLY agreed, I just thought things would be different.
Last week was terrible due to the child support issue. He said many mean things to me and reverted to past behaviors. I didn't see him at all through the week. We did talk on the phone but it was mostly about child support. This weekend was good. We went out of town his friends and it was a really good weekend.
This is where I get hung up. It's such a roller coaster ride. Tonight we were having casual conversation about things, and it turned ugly. I had asked where he was keeping the tractor and he said I don't know. He ended up saying he doesn't want to tell me and then once I was mad finally that it was at his parents. I don't understand why he wouldn't just answer. Realistically I don't care where it is we were just talking about it and I asked where he was storing it. I told him that I don't want to be in a relationship with secrets.
Luckily I have a IC session tomorrow and will discuss this with her. I wonder whether I am making things worse or if this relationship just isn't going to work.
