Feeling Ugly

[MJontheMend]

Wow! You guys are the best. Not a bit of bad advice in the bunch.

I guess I just had to have some common sense knocked back into me. I'm just going to do what I need to do to feel good about myself. Helpful things other than just counting calories, like starting to run again and engaging in more social activities.

Instead of counting down the pounds, I've decided I'll just count down the number of gin and diet tonics I would have to drink in order to be comfortably naked in front of a strange man. When I get to 1, I'll know I've at least got my own "mojo" back.(LOL)

Of course, there's something dangerous about this method and I think that might be part of my problem. When I start feeling better about myself and project less of a "frumpy" image, I do get attention and it is harder to be content with my LDH and this is kind of scary. I wonder if I'm semi-consciously sabotaging myself. Also, my H is not at all supportive of my dieting efforts;insists on having chips and ice cream in the house, complains if I cook a low-fat dinner, never freely offers up any verbal validation, and of course never believes my suggestion that more "beefcake" would dampen my desire for cheesecake.

Thanks again,

NMB (Hopefully, soon to be MM (Mega-Mojo)