My WAS - looking help and thanks in advance PART 6

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Read a great Bruce Lee quote, and it reminded me of this mindset I had 10 or 12 years ago.

"You will continue to suffer if you have an emotional reaction to everything that is said to you. True power is sitting back and observing everything with logic. If words can control you that means everyone else can control you. Breathe and allow things to pass".

Weekend was OK. Friday W is a little drunk and got emotional about our whole R. I listened to her. Eventually she was mad that I wasn't going over to comfort her, so I did go to her. Long story short, she doesn't want to live but she says she's not going to do anything harmful to herself.

Saturday she finally said the affair was wrong. Not sure how we got into this convo, but she is ingrained in her lies and the stories she's told since almost a year ago and when that happens it almost seems as if the lies are true. I was scared during the convo, but decided not to let that rule me. I read an old post from Coach saying FEAR stands for false evidence appearing real so I told W I can't be with someone who thinks it's every OK to lie to me or to get involved with another person while married. The bad part was I hung around her too long and did let my temper win a few times.

Sunday went fine. I was making plans with a friend and W decided to do the same until my plans fell through, and she said she wasn't going to see her friend if I wasn't going to see mine. Codependent tendencies maybe...