Well yesterday at my mom's house for the Super Bowl went well. The boys had a great time and it was nice to hangout with everyone. W and I chatted a bit, nothing important just chit chat.
A couple of things I noticed yesterday: 1) She kept asking me if something was wrong with me. I was in a great mood yesterday, I just didn't follow her around the house like I had been and I generally just acted aloof. I was engaged with her when she wanted to talk, but didn't try to keep the conversation going. She clearly didn't like it because she asked several times what was bothering me.
2) She kept trying to find reasons to touch me, which was strange because she hasn't done that in months. I'm not reading anything into, I just thought it was odd.
This was the first time we have hung out together in about a month and also the first time since I have gone limited contact with her. I will say our interactions were completely different than they had been in the last few months. It also felt different for me too. When were together on Christmas, internally I was very emotional because I just kept thinking about losing our little family. Now I just enjoy the time we have together and don't think about the future.
Another thing I found odd was she was making future plans with my step-sister. W asked my step-sister if she wanted my W to help move her into college in the fall. I don't understand what she is thinking. At that point we will be almost a year from BD. I know I'm mind reading here, but I believe she thinks everything will stay the same if we D. I haven't talked to her about that, but in no way will anything be the same with her and my family if we D. I think she thinks we will still do things like Sunday all the time even after D.
