13 years and 2 kids pt. 4.

[Hurt213]

Journaling a bit:

So, weekend is coming to an end, and all in all, its been a good one of its kind. Today I woke to two texts from my ex, who told me that s1 had a fever and D5 had a stomach ache, and it was between the lines, that it would be cool if I could come and help. I texted the following: "I can see how it must take its toll with two sick kids, I do hope they feel better very soon. You will figure it out im sure."

So heres the deal I guess, from my perspective: I feel bettered, I feel stronger, and then I dont, but when I dont, it doesn't last very long before I am strong and better again. I have come to terms with the fact, that she didn't want me anymore, and she needed more in life apparently. So I am just gonna let her have that, and not stand in her way .

An hour later, kids were apparently fine she texted, and she took them swimming. Did not respond anymore. I went to play a round of golf with some mates, and my phone battery died, which I didn't mind at all (nothing to disturb me on the course). When I arrived at my parents place, I had five pictures, two texts and a missed call from my ex. The texts were about what the kids had experienced today, and the pictures were of the kids enjoying their day. I wrote "Hi. You called me earlier? Was it important?"

She texted, that D5 wanted to talk, so I called her up and told her thanks for the pictures of my kids, and if I could speak with d5. D5 told me about their great day, and in the past week, when I talk with my kids, my ex has begun having it on speaker so she can be part of the conversation. I haven't mentioned anything <-- its not like we are having secrets and I dont want to mindread into it. Is it NGS to tell her not to listen in? or is it trying for an reaction to even make a remark about it? dont know the answer to that...

So I told my ex if we could talk without speakers on <--- backstory: for the past 7 months, while she has been out living life, I have been taking my kids to gymnastics on tuesdays, and tuesday is also my visit day when I am not with the kids, so I can take them to said gym. However, she wants me to come by on wednesday instead, because now gymnastics is really important to her, and yes..... no fkn joke.... she wants me to come wednesday so she can go workout while I sit the kids...... I told her: "I understand completely that working out makes you happy, and it is important for you, however, I will not change my visit day, and I will be coming tuesday. I makes me really happy to go to gymnastics with the kids, and I have been for the past 7 months, so I will continue that - I hope you understand my point of view".

She understood, however started out by saying we had only been out of IHS for 3 weeks, and didn't see the problem (I replied that prior to that, I had still been the one who went to gymnastics every tuesday while she did other things) <-- she saw reason with that argument, and let it be. She said that it was really important to her to attend gymnastics. I said she was welcome to join us, and she said she was going to that then, and then she would also come and be part of gymnastics when I have the kids (basically changing the day she is coming by). I said, the kids would love for her to be part of it. I then ended the conversation, by telling that I had to go now.


So rather lengthy text. I tried to be civil to the point, where I could see my NGS behavior becoming a problem, and then I said stop. I dont know if I should had handled it in another way.

Hurt is doing his best to be civil but not a toy to throw around.. Those days are over.