Just keep swimming, I think I can, I think I can #

[marina7]

Thank you everyone,

Job, I honestly believe, God has been with me through
out this. Something told me to not panic and
Protect us.

Trio's where more scared, because they heard and felt
The tires. But when they see I was ok and calm and
I made them laugh they realized we are Ok.

And about W pretending I called her, yes that's weird
But also is not the first time. W is a total different
Person alone and when OW is around.
So that part am use to, it sadden me for the moment
But I know is nothing New.

DnJ
Hello sir,

Is Sunday here not much I can do. My friend
Who has AAA tolled my car so is here now park.

Hoping to get fix. New car at the moment I can afford
Hopefully a friend mechanic he be able to fix. But it might be
Month's from now. It will be a 800.00 to 1,200 job versus buying
A car. It's a older car but looks great. We had a vortex cold blizzard
And like anything old it broke.

Thank you for breaking down W emotions
The more days pass and weeks and months
I see clearly is not my fault.

I could see W was holding so much emotions
But as you said Mlcers speak so ill of LBS
How do they back track to everyone that M
Was and never been a bad person. Again W is very
Prideful I don't think W would ever say W was wrong.

Peacetoday,
I am taking it a day at a time
I always loved to cook and new I would like to
Open a small shop for only pick up orders.

But since bd that has became my therapy cooking
Up a storm. And I gotten better.

Your right about W. She could have but she chose not too
Financially W has money, but what I heard is OW controls
The money.
Example they just went again furniture shopping and lots of clothes
In trio's words. They say W has bags and bags of clothes in closet
With still tags. So part of MLCers is spending and shopping
And W does that for sure

I was more hurt as I just listen of W asking me
To beg her for help. As W stated I let my pride get in the way.

But my thoughts is if other shoes where flip. I would have stood there
And ask W let me please take you home and kids. But W was more
Concerned how I didn't beg for help or I am prideful

In W words, M just ask me you need my help.

But oh well... I only can control me. And God knows I would have been
There regardless of our situation because am human who cares for others

So where am located is a 50/50 state. And kids go to the school with
Better school numbers. So Trios stay with W for school but I have no limitations
Which I see them when I want and have all access to school, medical
And pick them up after school. What's hurting me for now is the drive
W use to live less then 14 min away then W moved and now is almost 30 min
Away.

I was more hurt because how do I loose time with them but this happens
In divorce. And Trios say they miss being tickled and tuck in before bed
Something I have always done even when I worked long hours I would make
Sure I would facetime them to say goodnight.

As I stated W was brought up not in a loving home. W isn't an affection
Person. Where I am more.

Journaling
So yesterday W did keep me updated throughout the day of car that
I left in Walmart parking lot. W would say Is still there.
Is still safe. Several times.

And W did call finally spoke with kids less then 3 min and then ask
To speak with me. I said Yes.

W, I was wondering did you get the car because I just went and
check again and is not there.
M yes it just got here. Thank you
W quiet
W ok so how they doing
M who
W laughed kids M
M they good under the weather but good
W ok do you need anything
M No thank God I have cold/flu here and juice
W ok so you want me to go get them tomorrow at your home
Unless car will be fix by then
M well is not that easy of a fix will take time and cost
W laughed well you know more about cars then I do, how you
Think that happened
M I went on to explain my best to maybe why it happened and
It was not because I did it.
W silence
W ok so please let me know if you need anything I know you
Don't have a car for now.
M ok
W so pick them up tomorrow from your home
M I'll let you know, but I'll have neighbor take me if need too.
W ok,
W ok ummm let me know then ok
M ok hung up

Such a weird conversation.
But I also know not to think to much into it.
But W is everywhere.