I actually appreciate the candid feedback. I'm struggling, but I keep that to myself and my IC (and this forum). I've made my decision. I can't be friends with her. I'll remain "friendly" in that I won't be an a-hole, but that will be the extent of that. The dynamic with kids makes this whole thing a pain. I've given up on R at this point, I would be pushing the D except we have some legal stuff we have to clear up before filing. Pushing that along as quickly as possible, but the process takes forever.