At Home now after having the Talk with the W and she left a bit emotional to have dinner with her sisters. Kids are at home with me, S6 said he wanted to have a guy's night out. So pizza party it is.
I want to start by saying I also had another talk with S11 about what I wanted and to explain what was going on, because he may have overheard W and I talking. I told him I was going to move closer to their new house and I wanted to spend more days than I thought I was going to be able to with him and S6. We were eating dinner together and I kept it brief as possible and asked him how he felt about it. As soon as I said more days, his face lit up.
FS,
I hope W and I will continue to amicable. That may change. There was definitely a shift in her attitude. I'm trying to mentally prepare for it. Be respectful, be short, and to the point.
Thank you for the encouraging words.
I feel like this is only the beginning.
It feels like I am walking a tightrope high in a cloud on a windy day.
Even though I said I wanted my boys to be in one home, I believe that home should be with both parents. I was trying to do the honorable thing thinking W would give them a better life. The thing is that it never sat right and even after a few days of thinking about it, I don't like it. More time with the boys is definitely worth fighting for.
Lost, I'm reluctant to say anything about my state of mind when it comes to W. I know I am not detached as I should be, but I am trying to live a better, healthier life thinking more about me and what is required of me as a Man, Husband, and most importantly as a Father. I don't have all the answers and I have to be open to listening and learning, being honest with my intentions. If I'm coming from a good place, and am heading for better, I can make the adjustments based on the advice I get and still be on track.
I am eating oatmeal every day now with my turkey and eggs for breakfast. I skip lunch and eat something light for dinner like a salad and grilled chicken. I'm thinking about changing that up and doing a more balanced diet and I started upping my gym routine.
Eat that oatmeal haha. I ate oatmeal everyday for almost 2 years straight during my weight loss journey. I would buy rolled oats in bulk from the health store and cook them up and put peanut butter in them, dab of honey. I wouldn't eat instant oats. Then i switched over to just eggs as oatmeal had run its course . Are you counting your macros?
