I kind of just had a breakthrough on myself. Before I got married I was living with my parents. I've lived with girlfriends in the past but I really don't know what it's like to live alone. I was obsessed with learning how to attract women and keeping my social life busy although mostly was resigned to staying on the computer all day, going on a few dates, doing a few hobbies, going out with the guys every once in awhile, which still seemed unfruitful and meaningless. This insecurity about myself goes back to the age of 4 I've always chased women. Even my wife is said to me she doesnt think I could be alone. And in my 38 years on this Earth I haven't chased my purpose. I've always struggled to find it. I chase the money and just getting by day to day. Even though I realize this all along now I'm facing a square on. It's all the more reason to take the focus off of her and on myself. Now I finally understand what people say on here when they say focus on the things you can control for yourself
