Hey Adam, Haven't had a whole lot of GAL activities. Weather has stunk, not doing much outside, few projects indoors, still working out daily. Have been helping parents with a local downsizing move to a condo.
Honestly...W has been asking me to spend time with her, I'm not expecting too much. She is extremely depressed, doesn't like any aspect of her life...work, past deeds, financial sitch, etc. Does not feel need to address past sexual abuse with IC anymore, sees it useless. Has not been doing anything outside of house unless with me.
A bit concerned...I'm not leaving right now nor is she...youngest is S14 is in HS and I would never abandon him until he was set. The mood in the house is civil, I do not know of contact with AP or if A is still going on...I don't ask, I don't care. W has begun contributing financially back to the household after about 6 or 7 months of $0 so I am good with that.
I have no hopes or expectations but see myself in for a long period of this until her depression is addressed. She is on meds and they help a little but she is also drinking a fair amount so I assume that counters meds. I still see IC but less and less as I have been much better at handling my emotions of anxiety, anger, etc that I experienced months ago.
Not sure where this is going, W has expressed love for me, shown affection, looked forward to future but to this point has not felt or shown the remorse or taken steps to address what was actually done to be able to move forward. W expresses that she is messed up, knows she has hurt me and is sorry. I'm still on lockdown emotionally, I like the state of our home, my S is in a good place and that is my first priority. I am in a better place and know that I am an independent man and am thriving at work and have created some new relationships with some men and women outside of my homelife.
H-50 W-48 T-19 M -18 S23, S14 BD - 5/9/2018 OM discovered 5/10/2018
In house sep - 8/18/2018 Rope drop 2/15/2019 R'ing since 3/15/2019
