My WAS - looking help and thanks in advance PART 6

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Not running away this time. I am just bored. Gonna get out and get busy. MC last night, WW is still lost.

We spent 30 minutes talking about a small argument last weekend where I immediately corrected WW on something. It aggravated her. So she came and fired right back at me, and I got offended by her. Both parties hurt, problem not solved, but we both let it got. The problem is that this is easily preventable and was the type of argument we used to have that would spiral out of control. So I need to 180 here. MC had great advice, but I'm not sure that WW understood it.

WW used the word "separation" in MC. I asked when we were separated. She couldn't answer without a long winded list of excuses. We argued about that. I need to work on my detachment bc my reaction was way too emotional. In this convo, W said she doesn't care about my feelings while crying and being mad. W says her IC says it's not an affair too. Ya, OK.

WW complained about my attitude a couple weeks ago when we were snowplowing for FIL. I left work about 1 pm, went straight home, took 6.5 hours to get to lot we were plowing, and then spent 24 more hours on the clock. I was dreading it the whole time, and had all my new job stress hanging over me. But W needs me to drop everything and help her and her lying parents and apparently thank them for it too. But the attitude still needs improvement, or maybe I just say no I can't help next time.

W says she wants me to be selfless and described herself that way. I pointed out that 10 minutes ago she told me she doesn't care about my feelings.

W is all over the place, she needs more time and space, and so do I.

Anyways, I'm not going to let any of this stuff keep my down. I have plenty of things to do plus some new activities I'm thinking about. Maybe some boxing and MMA classes/gyms. I think it'd be good for me to hit someone and be hit.

Goals are to 180 on attitude and behavior and work harder to make those lasting, and also to detach further.

Also, if anyone connected with Did on IG feel free to find me on his friends list. It's kinda cool.