Feeling lost getting over it and maybe not caring

[Turbine]

Let's see. It has been a few days since I last posted.

I have a little bit of time right now since with this wonderful weather we are having in the Chicago area work was called for today. End of the month and pushing for every last $$$. Yet the owner/boss said safe over sorry. The salesmen can all work from home so new orders are possible. getting it tested or repaired... another story.

Anyway that was digressing.

I called last Thursday and was able to get a coaching session with my coach the same day. Silly me accepted before realizing that I hadn't done my homework from last time. Wasn't able to cancel either. Still the session went very well. Got some new homework. She recommended i start a gratitude journal. Check.

So this morning I made breakfast. Bacon, eggs, hash browns, some V8 etc. Wife was up and I offered to make her some. She declined. Declined without any harsh or nasty tone. (Plus) When she came down she snagged a piece of the bacon. (Plus) I offered again but she again declined and started to make her own. She sat at the table WITH me (BIG Plus) since that hasn't happened very much. She ate more of the bacon (plus) I washed the dishes, including hers. (Plus) Since normally she is adamant about washing her own. My offer was made with this as supporting to just let me wash them. My hands were already in the dish water.

She took her tea and returned to her room. A few minutes later she came out and teased me about having her tea. There was a smile, a little laugh, and she admitted to teasing. (Plus plus)

So what do I make of all of this? Not a thing. Because that would be an expectation. I will take it as a good morning.

Last Sunday she did attend church. I have posted before that I believe this is a good step. She wants to believe and do what she believes is right. However, right now my attending is viewed with suspicion, as are any and all changes she may notice. Changes aren't for her. Inspired by yes. I have to want them to make them permannent. I don't intend on not going so we are going to have to learn to accept this. In His time according to His plan.

Stay warm and safe to all of you being hit by this chuck of arctic air.