I’m second-guessing everything when it comes to this sitch. I keep thinking that things will get clearer as time progresses, it is for everything except for WW and I. I am struggling to get it into my head that WW is a ball of emotion. But then I think, “But she looks happy and is keeping it together and so on. She knows what she is saying by telling me we don’t have a relationship anymore. Besides, I was the one who said those things, not her. Now she’s sticking to those things.”
I go back in the past and look at her downs and her demonstrating the pain she is in between her moments of OM2. One moment I feel sorry for her, the next moment I’m cursing OM2 and WW names. Swing left, swing right. Talk, don’t talk. I’m feeling wonderful, I’m feeling awful. I hate her, I love her. I can’t stop going from one extreme to the next without trying to find the balance.
I can’t even do the RotG challenge because my mind careened and crashed yesterday.
