Building my best self and life with or without W

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Thinking about it I do reallymiss her. She’s deep smart gorgeous sexy. I really like talking to her. But she’s not kind and doesn’t show me love. She’s hardened to me as Sandi says her heart is hard. Seeing other couples where the girl is rubbing the guys leg or leaning all over him during a meal. I’m a physical person that’s what I want. It’s sad. There’s nothing I can do but move on. Being that I do still want the relationship I’m not sure it makes sense to file. Just go dark I suppose. And commit to it long term.

I did not respond. I will not talk to her about anything but D4 and financial / divorce. No help with housing decisions for her or work or anything else.

For those who have read my blog why does it matter if w sees it? Going to go public with it at some point. Going to reach my goals. Not stay stuck in this space I’ve been in.

Going to write agreement for us to sign before paying any more support. All business. I said everything I had to say personallynyesterday. She said she liked spending time with me and I will not allow any more cake eating. Time to man the F up.

$2325 to be paid for 1 year as alimony/ spousal support + child support in 12 monthly payments which started July 2018.
June 2017- June 2018 w supported by shared credit cards after w left the marital home and separating.
Child support to be determined in June 2018.
There will be no splitting of any property or other accounts or funds after this support.
Custody shared as close to 50/50 as possible. Schedule to be re-evaluated as needed when w starts working.