Read everything here. Stop the pursuit. Detach. Focus on yourself. No talking about D. If she brings it up say "I understand you think it would make you happy to D, I dont want that, but I wont stand in your way".

You are in for one hell of a ride. Just follow the rules. The goal is to better yourself. Get to a point where you are emotionally safe.

Read everything here, including all of the posted situations. Good luck. You will live. You will get through this.

M:16
T:21
H(me) 38
WW: 38
S11 D16 D19
Red Flags of A: March 2018
ILYBNILWY: August 4, 2018
Moved out of MBR: September 24, 2018
BD/Confirmation of A: October 31, 2018
D Filed: March 27, 2019