Wow. Good on you. Just...wow, I'm so sorry you had to even encounter a cake from OM.
Originally Posted by Phoenix9
Humbled and ashamed, I called my mom and told her what happened.
Please don't be too hard on yourself on this. It was an oversight, and now you're aware. People make errors like this all the time with their accounts - it has no reflection on your as a working father/man or your ability to keep track of finances. I'm sure it was a one-time oversight. Perhaps mildly embarrassing but you should not be ashamed.
Originally Posted by Phoenix9
How badly broken am I? If it's taken me 6 months to start making tangible progress, how long is it going to take for me to gain control? Gain control of my sex issues? My confidence issues? My NGS? My anger and vindictiveness? What more am I going to have to lose to bring any other possible issues that I need to address?
sometimes change happens below the surface. I know you want to see and feel deep rooted changes in yourself. But try to remember that sometimes change is reflected in tiny ways, and those tiny ways add up. You have identified areas in which you wish to improve, but you are not your shortcomings. You are many, many good things. In being human of course you have issues or personality traits you wish to work on. They're just one part of what makes you Phoenix 9.
You're still tackling everything head-on which shows a real tenacity. Good on you.
