Had the kids for my week. I miss then immensely. They always bring a smile to my face. They asked me if I am going to marry someone else and I didn't want to discuss it. W has told them she may remarry some day. I don't think that's appropriate to be discussing with kids. Kids asked my again why I took mommy's furniture. No telling what else she is telling them.
Had to drop off suitcases at the house. She's back to her old, angry self. She's insistent I remove items from the garage and demanding to know when. I just told her I don't know and she began fuming. I just kissed kids goodbye and left.
Affair continues to thrive. My birthday as well as valentines day are upcoming and I feel numb about it all. I have had recurring dreams about us reconciling and its put me in a bit of a funk lately. I miss her, I miss coming home to my kids daily.
I am facing things head on. No relationships, trying to avoid distractions. W still has the house, luxury car and not much has changed for her. I fear that when reality hits the kids will suffer. I have to do my part to help them.
