Building my best self and life with or without W

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W texted me asking if I wanted to get lunch or tea tomorrow. Earlier we had said wed. This is two years of my life. I’m not just wasting more time in this sitch. I have had major improvements across the board. If w wants something together great. If not her loss I’m sure life has something better fitting in store for me. Change needs to happen. It’s been too long and I’m done with the repetitive cycle.

I do appreciate your advice and perspectives. I will think about it as if I was advising a friend. Maybe I don’t go through those bullet points. But I’m not going to be her friend if we get divorce as she seems to desire.

Maybe I just say something quickly to alnokwege past mistakes. Say to her you know feb was my timetable what do you want? The separation no longer works for me. Level up with me or don’t. Are you In or out. Ic liked those last two points... then it’s easy to go dark and pay less and I can be the stand up man I want to be communicating. Then I’m not pursuing her as much... Just standing behind my words with feb timetable. I’m not going to overthink it but be confident and let life flow. Rather than trying to control everything.

If I get divorced that’s ok. I’ve tried my best. And I love the man that I am and the man I’m becoming. Thank you.