Did... I’m not 100% sure where you and your W are at because I have read so many sitchs that they are all starting to blend. It seems to me that she isn’t worried too much about losing you nor has she had to live her life like a divorced person. Take care of the business between you (childcare schedule, finances, etc...) and then go as NC as possible. Drop the rope... really drop it. You sound like you are getting to a place where you can do that. You will feel a heck of a lot better once you do. Your W, on the other hand, will not. (((HUGS)))