Building my best self and life with or without W

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Guys what do you want me to do. I’m done with the separation we’re getting close to two years. I’m done with leeway. I’ve talked to my Ic about this in depth. Basically she can be in or out. And if out. I’m just done. This conversation is at the feb timetable where I was planning on cutting support to $0. Now after thinking and talking to some of you. I was thinking $1325 just rent instead of $2325.

Now thinking what I’d tell someone else on here. Act like you’re divorced already. Focus on yourself. I’ve already been doing this. She says things about herself I don’t respond. All I talk about is D4.

Honestly guys I’m ready to move on with my life. We were talking about D4 school for next year today we have to decide on kindergarten. And it was a mature productive conversation. During the convo I mentioned I could get a babysitter since I will need one. Because I don’t want to see each other all the time if we aren’t together. She seemed surprised and said what are you going to hate me.

Really with the convo and date it was supposed to be this separation is over I’m done paying so much money. You’re in or out. And if she’s out I go black even more just talk about D4.

I assume your advice will be just go black now. Instead of after the convo.

So what do I do with the lunch / coffee plans? Use it as a date to show we get along and finish kindergarten talk? Cancel? Just don’t ask her out unless she asks me when / where? Explain I want mutual respect and I don’t respect myself paying so much voluntary support.

Thanks all. I have a great life. Yes I really want the marriage and my wife back if she’s full of love for me. I just don’t see that happening so why prolong it. It’s been since June 2017 a long fing time