Thank you for coming back and sharing. And for proving that eventually dbing can work.

I can imagine it isn't easy for you now that you have moved on to have to reopen those closed doors. It is a lot to process but I guess first you need to figure out what you want. Once you know that your path will reveal itself.

Best wishes

R 25 years
M 14 years
S11 & S13
Working on it alone since Oct 2014
M in trouble a lot earlier (~2 years)
Feb 2016. 1st R chat in a yr.
Next R chat Aug'17
Still together