I am a naturally untrusting guy. And if you burn me once it's even harder. Twice I usually write the person off. Forever. The fact I didn't do that proves to me that I deeply love her. She has even commented on that. But you're right, for dinner reason I hope back. Pride? Stubbornness? Selfishness? Some or all of those?
I think its a combination of all of those things...
Pride has certainly doomed a relationship or 5 million before. It certainly could be a part of this one...
Stubborness ?
Yea, I mean it could be confused for being steadfast, or ironclad in your morals and convictions...
Selfishness ??
You certainly seem to be a generous and giving person here...
However...
You aren't the person that you are here, at home..
The anonymity is gone at home, and you are left with a stripped down Steve
My guess is, and the reason I asked the questions...
WHY are you prideful ??
WHY are you stubborn ??
WHY are you selfish ???
My best guess would be fear...
Fear of being divorced
Fear of being embarrassed
Fear of failing
And to maybe an even greater degree ??
Fear of succeeding....
What are you so afraid of ???
Think about these buddy, along with with re-reading my questions from the last thread...
Because until you can answer those and be totally honest with yourself...
How much do you really know about you, so that you can give yourself to her ???
All great questions. Once the house sells I will get back in to C and explore all of this. Fear is a good description for a lot of my motivations. She is only the 2nd person I've ever let get this close to me, and I was burned badly by the first. And have been burnt by her as well. For someone that has trouble trusting out of the gate, that definitely has an impact.
Fear of vulnerability was the first thing that came to mind when I was reading your post. And your last question is very profound. We both want to get back into MC as soon as the house sells. MC was awesome at helping us reconnect. And we'd like to continue with that to give us tools to stay connected.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
