As well as I'm doing, my emotions are still all over the place. I spent a week with my girls. Then, I went on vacation to El Salvador. I had a great time with the girls and on vacation. I was out of sorts because it took me out of my routine. Then, the loneliness hit when I got back home. I'm doing okay. I had a lot of things to take care of this week, so that's kept me relatively busy. I haven't gotten back into my routine fully. The weeks coming up will be tough. Both of my daughters were born in early February, so that will be an emotional roller-coaster. I'm pretty much NC with XW. It helps keeping me detached. I try not to mind read on why it seems to go from one extreme to another with us. Just keep moving forward. When my thoughts turn to my XW or old life, I tell myself "is what I'm thinking helping me move forward." It helps a little.

I'm still corresponding with the girl I met on a dating site, but I won't be able to meet her until this summer. It's a weird dynamic. At least, I know there is somebody who is young and attractive who finds my online profile interesting. smile I tend to try to stay away from this site because I don't know that it helps that much with detaching.

I've found a good friend in my co-worker who I went to El Salvador with. It probably wouldn't have happened without the divorce. He and his wife are eager for me to visit El Salvador again.

No real plans for this weekend. I should probably remedy that. I'll probably go back home next weekend. I'll hang out with my best friend and we'll watch the Super Bowl together. Not much news. It's hard to balance part of me still wanting reconciliation (which is likely not even a possibility) and another part that is ready to move on. My main focus is to continue to make the changes I've made permanent.