I can see how my language and my desire can be considered pursuit. I feel like my actions dictate otherwise. Is it still considered pursuit even if I express to the board about softening my stance? I have no control over what she does and talk is extremely cheap (except when it comes to losing the chance to R, that always seems to take). I am just trying to be AMOAFWL through my actions and behaviors.
I am not sure if you know of our set up, but in the best interest of D4, we split occupancy of the house three days per week. She gets the house the first three days. I get the house the second three days. One day is wide open but I don't make myself available. I am not going to kick her out. She is talking about moving out herself. I will not interfere. I will not help her make the move happen. I will not be associated at all with her transition. No begging, no assisting.
And WW and I both agreed that there is no R between us right now. It was for a very long time. WW felt like she had a chance with me back in late summer/early fall, but I have repeatedly expressed to her that I did not want her to date OM2.
(4) - I am working hard on all of those things. As evidenced, I still have my dips in my state of mind, happiness and calmness. The gap between good days and bad days is widening. The confidence, humor, depth, sincerity, interesting, and engaging are strong aspects. For seduction, I am reading The Art of Seduction book you recommended to me.
(5) - I have been practicing this A LOT. And I think it's working. I frequent a coffee shop in the mornings, and this cute girl always gives me an enthusiastic good morning when I go in. I lightly flirt with other folks when I'm out and about. No intent, just practice and honing my skills.
(6) - My lack of social GAL activities cripples me on this aspect and I do get social anxiety from time to time. That being said, the opportunities I do get to socialize I take advantage of.
Yesterday and today just scrambled me. I'm doing ok other than my heightened anxiety. Still misstepping, but getting better balance.
