Just keep swimming, I think I can, I think I can #

[marina7]

Peacetoday and Gerda,

Thank you so much for ya time and
Checking up on me.

I am taking it a day at a time and being
There for Trios.

I see them and they just also don't understand

S10 really thought he was coming home but
S10 hug me and said thank you mommy for
keeping us together.

S9 and d10 also lost and they are angry of course
Why does W and OW have to stay with them.

S9 and s10 said they don't even tuck us in or hug us.

D10 said sometimes d10 eats and sometimes doesn't
I ask why. D10 said W makes things they 3 don't like
And W and OW basically don't give them other options
Only option is eat what we made or go to bed not eating.

I understand when ya say be there lighthouse I just
Listen and say Sorry trio's you going through this.

In earlier post I stated I didn't like GAL, GAL and W smiled
In court and infact they hugged. I am still in shock
.
I been going to therapy as always and taking care of
Apollo and church. It's been rough as W seems still
To want to argue about anything. W sent an email
Stating she wants the clothes back.

So like today I pick them up,help with homework and
Make sure they shower so W wants their dirty clothes back.

I just shake my head like at all..

So this weekend I get a text from biological mom
In text stating
BM, M I am worried about you since now W and you
ain't together, when you where with W I never worried
Because W is good to you. I am not sure what's going on
But please come back to hometown so I can get you
In rehab and take care of you. Not sure what drugs
Your doing or how bad your drinking but we will take
Care of you. Love Mom

Yelp this is the text message I get from Bio Mom
So W has contacted my family who I haven't
Spoken to in over 7 yrs since adopting s9 and d10

I didn't respond but from text W has told them am an
Addict and drinker.

Wow like wow. I honestly thought W was a WAW or MLC
But now it looks like W could be a narcissist or physopath

W has literally drag my name to anyone who listens
Now to contact people I haven't spoken to in years in more
Crazy. But does it surprise me No. One of W cousins
Warned me how W is a liar and Nuts to please be careful
And watch my back.

W seem to want to destroy me for some reason but
I have not given W the satisfaction or won't
I ignore.

W at drop off wants to knock on window I have drove
Off twice if W wants to talk we now use a court
Mandated app for divorce parents which I ask

If W keeps getting out of car I will then ask for drop off
And pick up at police station. I am mentally
And physically exhausted with W.

Again Thank you to those who have followed along.

I know my story is not done yet. I am just standing still
For the moment. I praying for a Miracle soon so then
Financially I can hire a new lawyer. My lawyer didn't
Want to go head to head with GAL but she does believe
W and GAL became friends. So now I need to get a lawyer
Who will help me win this fight for wrong doing.

As I stated GAL has an organization for undocumented
Mexicans and W is very involved as they walk the march
For equal rights. So again many things that are wrong.

But I also know God has his plan.

Gerda, yes I know my kids will always need me that
I know and I will always be there for them

And yes I understand cancer as life is short. I have
Lupus and MS and do infusion every 3 months
But I view life differently I now know life is to beautiful
I thank God every waking moment.