I just realized that yesterday was the 1 year "anniversary" I got the call from the OWs husband. H has been a mess ever since. A bit interesting to me that he's the mess, and I'm not. So, got me to thinking he really has been in limbo for a year, not really since he moved out. Probably even before BD. Wow! That's a long time to be in turmoil! I can't fathom why someone would live like that and not do anything about it. Well, not for me to understand, I guess.
At that time, I pursued, pursued, pursued. Really pathetic. He's the one that had the affair! There's been plenty of additional indiscretions too that I since discovered. No wonder he says regularly that he doesn't understand why I would want him.
Why do I?
Well, I have since realized I don't want that former/current person. I want a healed, happy person, and the basics of what I loved from the start are still there.
I just hope I can stay in the marathon to the end, so I can see clearly what the end looks like, and not get lost in the weeds of regret.
