I am praying for you too, Marina! Please tell us how you are!
I was thinking the other day about how I had cancer and how thankful I was that I got to live because if my kids had lost me and ended up with MLC dad, God knows what would have happened. And that even now, if I have to lose them part of the time, it's so much better than if they didn't have me to come back to. Even if you only see your kids for a little bit of time for now, they will see that as a lighthouse in the darkness, and it will sustain them. You have maybe even a more important role to play now. You are even more important in a way now. Have courage!
I believe I will see the bounty of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord with courage. Be stouthearted, and wait for the Lord.