Story and Symptoms of a WAW/MLC

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I already had the discussion of "Why am I moving into the basement and not you, when your the one that needs space?" Ive already commited to moving to the basement after going back and forth with her over logistics of the MBR being next to our sons room for child care, work schedule timing convenience, etc. My hours and pay fluctuate a lot. Believe me, I would love to tell her too bad, you move into the basement, but its my responsibility to clean it up of the mesd of my tools and stuff that has been lingering there for the last year or so. Plus it does just make more sence for me to move down there logistically.

Im not exactly fully detached here, but learning the severity and extent of all this beyond what she is telling me will serve me a purpose of better preparation. For months I dreamed of working torwards Rec. Now that I know the severity of things, I don't even want to look forward to sharing a life with this person or helping them in this moment, other than the sake of our son.. I just want to get my affairs in order after learning all this. What this person is telling and showing me
is way different than what they are thinking and planing or at the least, fantasizing about, but afraid to act on and is taking gradual baby steps little by little everyday of "achieving their new life" torwards such. Everything is civil and cordial and polite on the though on the surface daily. She still does show care torwards me and us not a cold person. But definitely in the friend zone now.

Ive initiated moving into the guest room for now which has started the seperation ball actually rolling, since she was too fearful to pull the trigger and was stalling. I've asked her to stop calling me "babe" even out of habit, no more affection from her a month ago. I'm polite, just like her, but even more now, I'm going dark on all comms. I don't care if i get her back at this point, unless some honesty hits the table openly on her end. We are both broke, and both our credit is shot, which explains no divorce, no lawyers, no mediation, no forward motion on her part. She knows She us financially stuck until we sell the house. Sounds like I'm her guarantor until that happens. She wants 6 months to figure things out in limbo land. I deserve better than this, and then her, someone who would only give me partially rehearsed Woman scripts of woman code language, and keep secrets this deep. I deserve better in life than that of someone that undermines me that much for my failures.

Although I may not have a life, and GALing, taking care of myself more like I should, I'm working on it, but it's hard when i need to focus on a lot unfinished repairs around the house. Ok. Im dropping the snooping now that I fully understand the severity of this now. Im not playing the attraction game anymore. When I get enough $ im filing first once I get a game plan. I'm not turning back from this, other than a full confession, which I will probably never get, but in the meantime I will continue to be cordial.