LBS dealing with WW (part 7) (piecing?)

[Joe2017]

That's actually a great idea if money were the problem. The problem is not money for her IC, it's the times that counseling is available. She will have to miss work. Lame excuse but also very valid. I'm lucky enough to get counseling as a work benefit.

I realize what the deal is, and it's complex.

1) I may not be able to trust her for a long long time.
2) I live in constant fear of another AP. I never feel safe.
3) She has no comprehension of how deeply her affair eviscerated my mind and spirit.
4) Neither of us have any idea of how long this process will take me, and then her.
5) Try as I like, I am not in control of this healing. Two steps forward and one step back.
6) There are so many triggers. So. Many.
7) Our kids have reservations about us dating due to their own hurt. Yes, my kid has an IC too.
8) XW thinks that I should be able to get over this but she doesn't realize I have PTSD-like symptoms due to her infidelity. She has seen me overcome other traumatic experiences, and I dealt with those just fine. Why is this different?
9) Sometimes I feel like she does not meet my expectations and standards for a potential LTR.
10) ...and much much more!

Man, that's a lot to overcome. Maybe that's why Yail thinks I'm looking at leaving being easier than staying. I don't want to be a walkaway, but quite frankly we aren't married anymore so it would be easy.

Yail:
XW does not really get a lunch break unless it's a company sponsored lunch event.