LBS dealing with WW (part 7) (piecing?)

[Joe2017]

Journaling:
Been feeling depression creeping in. XW continues to try to make me feel safe with her actions but it is not enough. She does not understand my pain, and she is not patient enough right now. I have trust issues, sure. I also do not feel safe with her yet. That will take more time.

We have been arguing a few times a week because I have so many triggers, and she can't understand why the same triggers get me over and over. I think she believes if we talk about it once, then that is enough. Obviously it is not. We don't have much time together during the week and it is difficult to make quality time for us to have heart to hearts.

This may not last much longer. I am composing my thoughts and I am going to write a detailed letter explaining why I feel how I feel, and how it is normal for me to take as long as it takes to recover. I have some videos I'd like her to watch with me about recovering from an affair.

If she cannot adjust and make the communication changes I need to progress through this process, I think I may need to hit pause on this R. Either take a break, or just break up entirely.

Tough call, but what's best for me is what's important.