Building my best self and life with or without W

[Did]

Limited time today. I already talked to an attorney and the $2325/mo would be from 1-1.5 years. The mediator also said she had to work. She has since gotten her license to start working. And she is ready to start earning money. She hasn’t yet but that will start soon... supposedly.

Yea definition of insanity I understand.

I am ready for divorce. It’s not what I want but I only want her if she’s working on being healthy herself and working on a relationship with me. I refuse to have an anchor pulling me down which is how I feel with the separation. Maybe NC is the same as no support and I’m done with separation as I was planning.

I don’t know but I’ll weigh my options and won’t be talking to her while I’m away. Vegas with the boys for lacrosse tournament tomorrow morning. Of course my throats killing me and D4 has been sick as a dog. W is also sick and saying she doesn’t know how she’s going to do it by herself. I’m sick too. The difference is I got out of bed and made breakfast went to store with D4 and got meds and food. Now dropping off to w.

Separation has been 20 months. I don’t think the leeway space works for me anymore. It no longer serves me. Maybe NC would change that. Something needs to change.thanks for support. Will consider what to do while I’m away