Over the last few days, I’ve been a bit ticked off. Maybe this is one of the stages that LBSs have to go through. I’m mad because I don’t really understand why H can’t get his act together. I’m mad because he is in limbo. I’m action oriented, so no action is foreign to me
I was looking through some old e-mails, and came across one from H about 3 weeks before he moved out. It said he was “curious that you never wanted to discuss separation or anything related this weekend? …….also your thoughts on separation? I know you must be thinking of it all. I just wanted to know what's on your mind about it. the purpose of it, etc? I am willing to talk to you about this all. Now I feel like I'm in a bit of limbo.”
This p!ssed me off. Once again, he put his indecision on me. Why can’t HE bring it up? Why doesn’t he want to talk about anything important? Is this perpetual indecision what I’m in for again? Will it linger until I get discussed or pissed off enough and just end it all?
Perhaps. Time will bring clarity. GAL will bring contentment. Continual engagement in my faith will bring peace.
I still don’t want to be divorced, but maybe that is ultimately will be what I NEED.
Time will tell, I guess.
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