OK....NOW I HAVE read your posts. Hmmmm...all i can say is ....
ZONK!
I don't get it. And really, maybe it is just me....But WHY did you go there? From the description, you initiated a talk about the affair. Is that correct? Is that the way in which this got started?
I am just not sure why you would start this conversation in the first place? Did you have a goal or plan for this? Sometimes, when and if THEY initiate a talk, well then, we have to improvise....or maybe let them know we are not quite ready to talk...but when we take it upon ourselves to initiate, I think we need to give ourselves space to plan. Know what we hope to accomplish...etc.
SLOWLY.......you have done such a great job staying OUT of his business and just being your wonderful self. What was going on for you?
Here are some things I imagine now having read this transcript: a. you were completely loopy and jet lagged. b. you couldn't STAND all the good stuff coming your way so you thought you might LIVEN things up. c. your anger and everything you have been swallowing....kinda welled-up d. you were bored e. you felt OVERCONFIDENT f. you had temporary amnesia and forgot everything you have done for the last little while!
Sorry. I don't mean this with any malice or cruelty. It is 2 a.m. here and I have also just been going through intense encounters with alien. Honestly, if I knew any better (or if I didn't know better) I'd say something must be in the stars!
Do I think it is a major screw up? NAH. A blip on the screen but maybe you might consider cuddling up....telling him you apologize for the lack of clarity in the conversation...(if that is what you feel.) ANd then, if it were ME, I might just tell him that I really know that none of this has been easy for him and that YOU TRUST HIM to find a way to extricate himself from the situation and that he can count on you IF he should need any help.
I know that my list (above) is written in jest but maybe you are (re)acting unconsciously. Tell me what YOU think is going on.
