Building my best self and life with or without W

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Thanks for reading. What’s it matter if she sees it? I believe that’s the direction for my future. Maybe I could concentrate on a book and not do the blog... I don’t know the exact direction.

You’re probably right that she will just see me telling her what I want and that I’m done with the separation as preasure. But NC and no support she’ll see as what. A total ahole? I knew I couldn’t trust him? I feel like as who I am I should at least communicate... I don’t respect myself for paying support voluntarily. Are you in or are you out. If you’re out go get the divorce.

Then there’s the fact that NC and ignoring her has actually worked. Counterintuive mindblowing. Duh.... I guess NC. But what about when she asks about her check feb 1? Then have the conversation?

Also w keeps saying stuff like we can help each other recently. I haven’t responded but she just wants this friendly divorce thing I guess. Either way I honestly feel like I’m ready to be done with the separation one way or the other. I guess if I’m truly done I can just do NC except Daughter. Not like what I’ve thought would work ever has. Why is this any different - insanity.