Feeling lost getting over it and maybe not caring

[Turbine]

Posting from a tablet or my phone is such a awkward way to do this. I'll make it work.

So over the weekend while I was at the gym I got talked into taking a freebie class. Extra cardio, flexibility, steps, weights, that kind of stuff. I kept up pretty well considering. So the class was last night. Place was busy with the post NYE resolution keepers. So I changed to head home.

W was out there doing her warm up. I suspect she is taking the class I just went through. Yes, so tempting to verify. Tempting to join that class. No... that would be a bad idea to do that on my own. Far better if she invited me. I would go too.

What I did do was walk past her with out a word. That hurt... Nothing was mentioned about it later at home. I really hate this roommate stage. Part of me doesn't want it to end. Part of me doesn't want it to continue either. Yes, have it end how I want.

To be honest though this morning I woke up and felt... nothing. We need to converse and get the house worked on. There is so much in the house... lot of it not mine or my responsibility. Lawyers want us to get an appraisal done. If we do with the house the way it is... we will be lucky to break even.

Guess I have to face that dragon and sit down with her. I told her I won't pack her stuff. Won't mess with it because that is so petty and counterproductive.

All in all I am not sure if this is a place is a normal point on this journey. I am sure I don't like this feeling or lack of...