My WAS - looking help and thanks in advance PART 5

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I have read Sandi's post on piecing, obviously I was thinking to myself I'm not there. My W is definitely in denial over her part, and I fear that she may run back to OM anytime as well.

I wish I would have been thinking more clearly every time she came back and not jumped back into things so fast. I have created a negative pattern by doing that so that's not good. And yes, she is disrespectful. I think I reinforced a negative pattern Sunday on our way to breakfast at a restaurant. Something reminded her of a negative thing in our past, started a talk, and it was not good. She yelled at me again, so I turned around. Then I stopped the car in the neighborhood and we talked for a while, then went out to eat. I know I didn't handle that too well. And I even knew it right then and there, but now I need to have the strength to act.

I can keep up DB, my 180s, and get back to GAL. I'm ok with that. We have MC scheduled for tomorrow. I told her that if she was coming back we had to do MC (among other things), so if I back off it what will that say? But yes, I'm still weary of MC b/c of her lackluster commitment. On a positive for W, she is going back to her IC this week. At least she's trying to get better.